I need to fall in Love

Every night I head to the bathroom with a good book and a hot bath in hopes it will contribute to sleepy eyes and a relaxed body. I normally read a chapter or two and then sleepily make my way to my bed and am asleep in minutes.

I have read nearly all the Harry Potter Series, and Twilight series this way, and enjoyed every stinking page, and in some cases wasn’t able to be sleepy because I was so excited to read the next chapter. I love Harry Potter & Friends and heck even his enemy’s. I hate to admit that I too fell into the Twilight craze not wanting to put down the books at night.

I miss that.

I feel lost, listless, and lonely without a book in my life that I want to devour. I have found books that fill the gaps, one’s that I’m excited about, and love the characters, but the book has no sequels, and once I’m done with the book, I again feel lost, listless and lonely.

This is such an unusual event for me. I came to Seattle with no desire to pick up a book for fun; reading had always been a chore from school, and I barley read what I had to for homework, let alone anything for pleasure. I have learned to love to read, on the bus, and through living with Eric whom is an avid reader.

I have a fair amount of “self help” books on my shelf that more or less depress me to read, and I have no inclination to pick them up. I’m currently reading “Eat, Pray, Love” and have no yearning to finish the book. I think if I was 30 something looking for a new chapter in my life that book would speak to me more but what I want is a new character; someone who I can identify with, someone who excites me. I want a group of girlfriends (or guy friends) who by reading their life story, makes me feel like a part of their world. I want to read about a young couple falling in love, their story, their world.

I’m not a Sci-Fi fan, nor do I like a good mystery, unless there’s a love story involved. I don’t like Danielle Steel (or at least I don’t think I do), and I have been down the “Ghost Girl” path – three books in!

I asked Eric last night as I was falling asleep if we could go spend some time at the library tonight. I’m determine to find a story I can love again, something that makes me wish my bus ride was just 10 minutes longer, something that I can lose myself in.

I can’t wait to see the King County Library tonight. I’m such a nerd.