There will be more pictures tonight when I get home and settled into blog mode. But something wonderful struck me last night as I was preparing for our 4th of July celebrations, I am nearly healed. I feel like I will never be 100% the same after losing my Mom, but this past year has really been hard on me. As I approach and pass each milestone without her I realize how much of a shell of a person I've been this year.
An Abby that I don't recognize, and one that I'm ready to get rid of. It's been a journey, but here I am, still alive, and still enjoying life most days.
I appreciate my husband for being patient with me. For letting me cry into my pillow and eat all the ice cream I need. I appreciate my co-workers who just smile and nod when I tell them there's a bad day on the horizon, and my Sissy who lets me vent no matter what it's about. It all stems back to the same thing, I'm jaded from losing her too soon. I have come to terms with the fact that I can't change things, and that bad things happen to good people, but it doesn't mean that some days I'm just pissed off for no good reason.
For today - I feel okay with where I'm at. I feel like I've turned a leaf, and that my friends is the Magic that Vacation brings to your life. A little R&R does go a long way.
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