I hate having a busy schedule. I know that it means that I’m having a lot of fun with friends, family and co-workers, but it also means that I have less time to date my Husband. I know that he is reading this and rolling his eyes about now, because he doesn’t think we “date” anymore, but hear me out.
People say when they get married that the “honeymoon is over” but it’s not like that for us. We still play / date and have fun, but when our schedules get busy the “go out and play” doesn’t happen nearly as much as the “hang out at home” does. Don’t get me wrong, I love that too, but right now, I miss our play. It reenergizes us as a couple and me as an individual.
It’s hard balancing it all; Work, Derby, Hobbies, Pets, Friends, Co-workers and Family. I sit back in awe of those of you who seem to balance it perfectly and keep trucking right along while humming the tune “so happy together”. Now that I say that out loud I don’t know if I sit back in awe, or if it’s nauseating to watch.
I’m struggling with my balance right now. My body is tired from the physical activity, and the late nights that leave me bound to land somewhere in the middle of exhausted and thrilled with life. Between the shots of caffeine and cold showers in the morning I will keep going and keep thriving; but I mostly just day dream of a big fluffy bed, with 45 minutes to nap, uninterrupted. Lately I have been finding myself talking, or bargaining with my alarm clock, really just 45 more minutes...
No one ever said juggling life, fun, work and derby would be easy, and I’m only a couple months into it, and haven’t even hit the “really hard” scheduling efforts yet, but I need to find a way to reenergize and recharge in like 5 minutes, because that’s all my schedule will allow. Gone are the days of sleeping in on a Saturday or a Sunday, so if you have any recharge ideas please pass them my way. It’s not the activities that I’m annoyed with, really, I love each and every one of it, and it’s just the lack of energy to do them.
I guess at some point I need to quit thinking about all that lies ahead and live in the moment of what I’m doing, but that’s hard for me too, because I’m always one step ahead of myself. Not to mention, without a planner I feel like I need to keep thinking one step ahead or I will forget something; and I don’t have a planner because… I spilled coffee on it. Awesome sauce.
But I do dream of this… Saturday after work (yes, I’m working on Saturdays too), Eric will meet me and we will have a date; a day where we just spend the afternoon on foot around the city enjoying the sights, smells, and most importantly, FOOD. We will enjoy every sun soaked (or more likely rainsoaked) moment and that will recharge me for the road ahead.
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