I do it to myself - it's not like I feel like people should feel sorry for me, I say "Yes" and "Of course I can take that on" too often, and hardly ever do I say "No", or "I'm sorry, I'm already overwhelmed".
It's especially hard for me to say things like this to my Relay group. They're amazing, and spend MOST of their time Relaying. I admire that more than anything. I wish I was in a place in my life where I could devote all my time to the Purple mafia, but I am not. I don't know that I will be for another year or so.
What I need to do is find my balance, and focus. I need to pass the Series 7, and even though I LOATHE studying for it, and it doesn't make much sense to me, the more time I put into it, the better off I'll be. I mean, this is my career after all.
Let's not forget to mention my ever patient Husband and family who just watch the purple flash, and then the complete melt down when I don't understand what I've just read.
What a mess I am some times.
That's okay - this weekend was about recalibrating. I had Relay stuff going on, but I decided for me, I needed to study this weekend, and spend some time with friends that I have been neglecting since this whole life has taken over me. So, here I am. Recalibrated and feeling good about it.
I even picked up my camera for a brief moment, it was to take Relay Pictures of my Dog, but still, it felt good in my hands. I am trying to pick it up more, it's such a release for me.
So, to wrap up with a little Relay Love... We have been kicking butt this year - Please consider getting us closer to our goal http://main.acsevents.org/goto/DiannesBattle
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